Blackwater Holylight is a rock band from Portland, OR, now based in LA. Their latest record, Not Here Not Gone, is out now on Suicide Squeeze.
Mood Board is our column where artists share with us a few of the things that inspired their new record. This time, Sunny Faris of the LA-via-Portland rock band Blackwater Holylight tells us how Buddhism, sunsets, Carmen Maria Machado, and more inspired their new record Not Here Not Gone — out now on Suicide Squeeze.
— Annie Fell, Editor-in-chief, Talkhouse Music
1. Buddhist concepts of suffering (Dukkha)
While recording Not Here Not Gone, I immersed myself in learning about Buddhist teachings on suffering, or Dukkha. These ideas became an anchor — helping me feel more connected to the world, to myself, and to my bandmates, while shaping the record’s lyrical compassion and sense of shared humanity. The Four Noble Truths became a kind of shelter for me during this time, and they continue to support both my songwriting and my life.
Dukkha teaches that suffering is inherent to existence — born from craving, attachment, and impermanence — manifesting as physical pain, emotional distress, and the unease of constant change. But it also offers hope: that suffering is understandable, workable, and ultimately surmountable through awareness, compassion, and the path toward liberation.
2. Nervous system regulation
A deeply transformative practice in my life over the past few years — and throughout the making of this record — has been learning about the autonomic nervous system. Nervous system regulation has become essential to how I move through the world. Sarah Baldwin, a nervous system practitioner whose work I deeply admire, has had an enormous influence on me. Her teachings were woven into my daily life while recording Not Here Not Gone, living not just in my mind, but in my body and heart as well. That embodied awareness found its way into the emotional pacing and sensitivity of the songs.
3. Los Angeles sunsets
When we first moved to Los Angeles, I began taking evening walks in my neighborhood, especially in May, when the sunsets feel almost unreal. Taking in the shifting colors, the sounds of the city winding down, and the smells in the air became a grounding ritual — one that brought me a profound sense of peace. Those moments of stillness and observation absolutely influenced the writing on this record.
4. Her Body and Other Parties
Her Body and Other Parties by Carmen Maria Machado was a major creative influence during the recording process. The book’s blend of magical realism, horror, and science fiction — used to explore women’s lives, bodies, and inner worlds — felt revelatory to me. It’s a book I wish I could read for the first time over and over again. Its impact can be felt most directly on the song “Bodies,” but its spirit echoes throughout the album.
5. Friends and family
Above all else, my greatest influence, musically and otherwise, has always been my friends and family. I am endlessly grateful for the love, passion, and talent that surround me. Being part of a community where people are constantly creating, risking, and putting their hearts out into the world continues to inspire me every day.
